I Love You Jesus




I Love You Jesus!








I love you JESUS!



I know LORD that I do not love you enough, I mean that is obvious.



But I love you the best I can tonight with the grace you are giving me!



I know the evil flesh inside of me O LORD does not love you, but I love you!



Even though that evil flesh inside of me does not want to follow you, whoever I am, whatever else I am, I love you!



I know some days I wake up and I have all kinds of oppression raining down on me, and it is so hard to worship you when those types of tormenting are coming against me.


Even though that demonic oppression can really wear me down at times, I still simply love you the best I can.



I know I do not love you as much as King David did, I know I do not love you as much as John did, even though all of that is true, I still love you!



I am sick and tired of evil spirits telling me I do not love you when I do LORD....



Life sure has been tough, I mean that is quite an understatement!



life has been unbearable at times too! I mean it has been for almost all of us living here on earth!



It seems that life keeps hitting me with blow and blow after blow upside my head but I still love you JESUS the best I can!







Wives have divorced me, this is a fact but I still love you JESUS!



Bosses have fired me for no reason at all, yet I still love you LORD!



Christian friend after Christian friend has dumped me, yet somehow, someway I still love you JESUS through all of this mess we call life here on earth.



From the age of 5 all the way to tonight, in this very long life, all hell has rained down on top of my head but I still love you LORD!



I know JESUS I do not love you with my own power, of course not that is silly!



I know I only love you because GOD your DAD is giving me grace to love you JESUS.



And I appreciate that FATHER, please send more grace so I can love your son JESUS more and more I pray! I need that kind of grace, I got to have that grace, I am begging for that kind of grace so I can love JESUS more I pray!



I had to do some time in jail, but I still love you LORD!



I even had to do some time in prison O LORD, yet I still love you because of your grace! Thank you for letting me love you JESUS, thank you for this gift I shout out loud to the universe!



I remember when the very first person I ever loved cheated on me multiple times, yet I still love you JESUS!







Send love I pray GOD, send love so I can love JESUS more!



It is a miracle I still love you JESUS, I mean it just goes to show how real you truly are that I still love you! For if you were NOT real JESUS, I would of dumped you a long long time ago when all hell rained down over my life throughout the years and decades of living on this cold dark planet we call earth!



I know I do not obey you enough LORD, I know I do not love you enough, I admit it, but I am so happy I love you a little bit!!!



As the months turned into years, and as the years of suffering and misery turned into decades, I still love you JESUS..... What incredible grace you are giving me FATHER to love your son JESUS still!



I mean after all, the evil flesh inside of me hates you deeply, yet I still love you! Thank you for that grace!



I mean the demons with me hate you JESUS, yet I still love you LORD!



Thank you thank you thank you for helping me to love you through the pain, hurting, crying and the vicious trials life brings to me, to all of us.



I remember when my first wife divorced me for no reason at all, yet I still love you JESUS!



I remember when my second wife faked our entire marriage and divorced me when I needed her the most. But I love you JESUS!



Rain down GRACE I pray FATHER, send more love between your son JESUS and myself I pray! Rain down grace I shout out FATHER.



It has been pure hell here on earth almost from the day I was born until tonight, yet I still love you JESUS, thank you thank you!



I remember when the judge gave me 2 years in prison, yet you used that time for us to build up the church there in prison. I love you JESUS!



I remember when enemies in prison tried to attack me, yet you got rid of them all, one after another after another and I love you LORD!



I remember decade after decade of suffering in sadness, loneliness and depression yet I still love you JESUS!



I remember battling against lust, terrible, vicious evil lust from a very early age in my life all the way to now. Yet I still love you JESUS!



You are such an incredible friend to me JESUS, no matter what I do, or how much I mess up, you stay by my side every day and night! I love you!



No matter what addictions I fall back down into, you are there for me, you are there JESUS and I love you!



I remember the thousands and thousands of hours I wasted internet gaming, yet you stayed by my side every sing step of the way & I love you!


I remember when I got divorce papers when I was in the hole in prison, yet somehow someway I love you JESUS tonight.



I remember decade after decade of hurting, pain and terrible depression, yet I still love you LORD!



I remember all of the nights I was extremely suicidal with nobody to help me, yet you stopped me from killing myself and I love you JESUS!






I remember all of the nights sitting in the dark with a huge sharp knife in my hand, yet you put a shield of protection around me and I love you LORD!



I remember when ministry partners turned against me, talked about me, dumped me like trash yet I love you LORD!



It is you and me JESUS against the world!



Even though I have had to battle alcoholism at different times in my life, I still love you JESUS.








I need you just as much tonight JESUS as when I first met you!



Through the tears, through the pain, through all of the crying I still love you JESUS!


Though you slay me LORD I love you!



Though the demons tell me over and over again how much I hate you, I love you JESUS!



Though 99% of the entire world hates you JESUS, I love you!



Though I get very angry at you sometimes JESUS, yet I still love you.



Though you bruised me and slayed me over and over again, I love you JESUS!








Though I have had to hit absolute rock bottom in my life over and over again, I still love you JESUS!


Though I have left you JESUS over and over again, you have never left me and you keep drawing me back to your loving arms.....


And I still love you JESUS!




Love, your servant Garrett


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