A while ago, when I actually thought that I was abiding in JESUS, I seemed to be having a very difficult time with depression, loneliness, sadness and also a specific sin…… The keyword up above is, I thought I was abiding in JESUS, I had no idea that I actually wasn’t. I was deceived into thinking that I was abiding in JESUS even though it became slowly clear to me over a period of half a year that I wasn’t.
Because of this sin, I was feeling very depressed and I also had a sense of hopelessness in my life. I had read all of the bible promises about how JESUS was going to set me free from sinning, but it just didn’t seem to be working for me! I read about how we Christian’s would have love inside of us, joy, hope, happiness, peace and many, many other wonderful emotions but I was NOT seeing those great emotions in my life. In fact, just the opposite was happening to me!
After committing a specific sin 2-3 different times in a one week period, I had felt like I was hitting rock bottom. I felt a lot of confusion in my mind, and the feeling of dread was creeping into my soul.
Sure I was reading my bible about 45 minutes a day, and of course I was praying to the LORD JESUS quite often, but something was still very wrong here…. I was spending my entire lunch break with JESUS which was one hour a night, and of course I was using all of my driving time to and from work for the LORD too……… So why was sinning, sadness and depression entering my life so strongly here? After spending all of this time with JESUS, how could I have gotten stuck into this terrible sin, feeling like I was being drawn down deeper and deeper into the pits of hell.
One night in particular I was feeling very depressed and worthless. I had a lot of confusion in my mind, and I just wasn’t sure what to do next or how to get out of this mess that I found myself now in. I had decided to call a Christian brother of mine to see if he was available to talk to me on the phone a few hours later. He said he was available and to call him at such and such time which I did of course. I decided that I would talk to him while driving my SUV around the city so as to help me to relax and to get ready for having a serious talk with this man…..
It was about 8pm at night when I called him, and of course he was waiting for my phone call so he answered the phone quickly. I went on to tell him how I was feeling deep inside of my soul, and what was happening with me as far as what sin I was committing. We shared some ideas with each other back and forth on the telephone about how I could get out of this mess. I guess my Christian brother lost patience with me. After talking for about 20 minutes back and forth explaining to him what I was going through, he then said - (Garrett, why don’t you just start abiding in JESUS, and he slammed down the phone and hung up on me)!!!
Wow did I get angry at him. I was absolutely furious with him for hanging up the phone on me, and second, because he told me to start abiding in JESUS…. I thought to myself, what on earth is he talking about? I was abiding in JESUS but my life was still a mess…… After he hung up the phone on me, he turned his cell phone completely off which I learned when I tried to call him back to find out why he hung up on me! That was the last time we ever talked, and that was also the end of our so called friendship.
Up to that point, I was absolutely convinced that I was abiding in JESUS. I had no idea that the LORD was seeking much, much more from us Christian men and women then most of us were giving back to him on a day to day basis. How could I know? I wasn’t being taught this in church, or on Christian TV, or in any of the books I was reading, so of course I thought I was abiding in JESUS, only to have JESUS HIMSELF teach me that I really wasn’t.
From the time leading up to that telephone call with my Christian brother, I was praying each day and night, worshiping the LORD most nights with wonderful Christian music on, reading the bible about 45 minutes a night, and doing a few other activities with JESUS on a day to day basis.
One night I was feeling very depressed and sad. I was laying down on my couch with tears in my eyes, when I approached JESUS on the topic of - Why don’t I ever feel Joy? How come there is no peace in me like I hear other Christian’s talking about from time to time. How come I don’t have your love inside of me JESUS? And I will never forget what HE told me next. JESUS told me - Garrett, people only get those wonderful benefits from ME when they are actually abiding in ME!!!!!
Wow, was that message powerful to receive. I cannot say that after hearing JESUS’ message, I immediately started abiding in JESUS day and night non stop, no not at all!!! It was a long process lasting months for the LORD to gently teach me what he was looking for in our mutual loving relationship leading to marriage in Heaven.
JESUS’ answer to me on the couch that night, is also true for the topic of being set free from sin or sinning… We only get the benefit from being set free from sinning or sin, when we are truly abiding in JESUS……. It is when we are truly abiding in JESUS that we now have the faith to believe in the bible promises that he did set us completely free from sinning. I am using Romans 6:6 for this example, but there are many others too such as - Romans 6:11 - You will find just like me, that when you are truly abiding in JESUS from the time you wake up, till the very moment you go to bed, committing a sin will be the FARTHEST thing from your entire mind!
Only by truly abiding in JESUS will we feel his overwhelming LOVE in our heart and soul day and night. It is only by truly abiding in JESUS that his peace, joy, happiness and hope will come poring into our heart and souls like a wonderful flood. And that wonderful flood will shatter the sinning in our lives. It will shatter the depression. It will shatter all of the darkness and addictions in our lives….. NO matter what you might be addicted to, start abiding in JESUS from the time you wake up till the very moment you go to bed and watch just how fast JESUS will crush that addiction of yours!!!
The LORD clearly has shown me that what he told me on the couch that night is the absolute truth. Our only hope from being set free from depression, sadness, loneliness, and sin is to abide in JESUS from the time we wake up, till the time we go to bed……… and by doing this, JESUS will then start to turn our entire lives around and oh how glorious and wonderful that is!!!!
I am here to tell you, that JESUS works!!!! What I mean is, by abiding in JESUS day and night you will have the hope, love, joy, peace and happiness that the bible promises us, and it will never ever go away.
Because of the LORDS incredible love and passion for each and everyone of us, HE taught me that he wanted me to dedicate my all of my time to HIM from the moment I wake up, until the very minute I go to bed, and in return, I too would receive all of the wonderful benefits that are promised to us in the bible!!!!
Or some of you might be saying - Well Garrett doesn’t understand that I have to work a full time job, or that I have 3 children to take care of!!
These links will show you what I do day and night to spend my time with JESUS! And it will also give you people who have a full time job, or children a great example of how to be abiding in JESUS too even though your lives are extremely busy.
Love, Your Servant Garrett